10. two skin graft surgeries and three weeks in the fucking burn unit flat on my back.
9. nine hours in five-point leather restraints on a psych ward for saying "yeah, i was about to get in the meds line" to a nurse.
8. getting drunk at terri's halloween party and pissing everyone off.
7. knowing that i had to move out of my old place, that i couldn't take atom and the kittens to the new place, and that my landlady was having a vet kill them.
6. believing in an a.d.d. bipolar alcoholic exjunkie.
5. visiting my grandmother as she lay dying. (tie: being yelled at by a nurse in the hospital because i was crying when my sister told me nannie roo had finally died -- "everybody dies. quit making a big deal of it.")
4. letting my father pretend nothing had ever happened when i went to visit my grandmother, and being re-disowned by him once she was dead.
3. vomiting while having my stomach pumped and nearly suffocating because the fucking tube was in the way and the vomit ended up blocking my trachea.
2. being so wiped out from one set of meds in february that i could hardly walk up a flight of stairs, and so wiped out by another med in august that i slept constantly, wet the bed, couldn't stand up without assistance and one night fell into the bathtub and took 20 minutes to struggle out.
1. losing my job because of the whole grandmother thing.